This morning I went to SI and Math Lab. SI is a tutoring offered for math and then Lab is where we do work and quizzes assigned by our teacher, on the computer. We have a folder that we pick up and work out of and then return before we leave. It gets corrected by the staff and the next time you come, you are supposed to continue where you left off. You also have the option of correcting any homework the staff marked wrong.
Every time I get my folder back, I have at least three problems marked wrong that I have to go back and redo, and usually I can see what I did wrong and fix it. So it is when I get this back, or a test/ assignment from my teacher, the wrong answers have big dark lines through them. That is all you notice- the big black lines. Never mind the other 25 questions you got right, you only see what you got wrong. It can feel frustrating and discouraging. I felt like I was so careful and sure that I did them all right.
Each time I go over the material again, I slow down even more and am all the more careful with each necessary step, checking and then rechecking to make sure I don’t get it wrong again.
As you go along, your SELF-confidence continues to drop and you realize the importance of paying very careful attention to each little detail- the importance of taking the RIGHT steps all along the way. Math problems can be very long and just one tiny mistake changes the outcome- the one tiny mistake makes the difference in whether the answer turns out right or wrong. You also realize that all the math RULES, though at times cumbersome, yet they help insure success. It is all set up, so that we can thoroughly learn one level, and have a strong foundation to move up onto the next level. If that first foundation is not carefully laid, and its lessons well learned, the higher math will get harder and harder and you will have much greater difficulty being able to keep up.
AND SO IT IS IN SERVING GOD. God wants us perfected. (Revelations 3:2, James 1:4, 1Peter 5:10) He wants Christ (the perfect Lamb of God) to be formed in us. (Galatians 4:19) And so we try and try. We start out self-confidant. “Oh I get it. No problem!” We rush through, knowing we know this stuff. But then we go to the Bible, or we go to Church, and we see marks- big black marks of imperfection. Never mind anything we are doing right. All that we can see is what we are doing wrong. And so we sorrowfully go back over each step, the next time more carefully, prayerfully; checking and rechecking. We learn by practice, quizzing, testing that every word of God does count. We learn GOD-confidence instead of self-confidence. We learn that it is all for our good, though it may feel frustrating and discouraging at times. But the whole point is to make us ready for heaven- to make us a jewel- to perfect us. We are part of the Lambs wife, and she is to be without spot or blemish- perfect! (Ephesians 5:27)
And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him: For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons. Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live? For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness. Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby. Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees; And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed. (Hebrews 12:5-13)